Diary 2025/11/23

1. It's really pleasant Sunday today, the temperature is adequate, not hot, not cold, not humid, comfortably breezy. But I didn't get out of my bed until 11:30, I decided to start my 30 mins running habit today. I successfully did the first time of this habit developing. I hope I can continue it.

2. The Shitty A is still distracting me, how bad a human could be, I think I've met the worst one. I will go for some assist to get over those shit.

3. Took the dark shower first time, a little bid creepy, but I think I will try it again. I'm not sure if it works or not, since I felt sleepy before the shower, so I can't tell if it did help.

Diary 2025/09/05

I would like to start to write diary everyday to record 3 things or thoughts everyday to practice my English and record my life as well. 2025/09/05 

1. Today is my little daughter Millie's birthday, I bought her a Hyread Gze mini+ ebook device so that she could borrow free ebook from public library ebook system. And I also bought her 2 comic books about physics. 

2. Her mother bought her a pair of roller shoes, but it did not look as expected, so we decided to return it. I asked her if she would like to learn rollerblade? She seems very interested, so I agreed to buy her one tomorrow. 

3. Yuting asked girls to ask my mom to come downstairs to celebrate Millie's birthday together, they said my mother refused to. I'm not sure what went wrong, so I went upstair to ask her to join us, but she still refused to, I apologized to her for yelling at her last time and the quarrel we had Since last time (right before I flied out for Singapore trip) I yelled at my mother and had a quarrel with her, actually I regretted right after that and thought about apologizing to her. 

We had fight because I'm upset about her hygiene, specifically the food waste she leaves lying around and the collection of food wrappers she keeps. 

After calming down for a while, I thought I should not ask for any change for a 75+ years old women, especially it's not something hurting any people, probably just annoying at most. She has been suffered and living hard throughout her life, it's ok for her not to compromise for anything.

She Found Now - My Bloddy Valentine

I might need a trip

I might need a trip. Suddenly I find mysef still in lost. I thought I have found my direction of life since I got a fabulous job, met a pretty girlfiriend. Everything seems on a right track. But now I have a strong feeling that I'm nowhere, nothing firm, and don't wanna go any whrere. I just want to stop and think, a deep, calm, thorough think. A trip might help. A trip could help me run away my current life, get rid of hat I have or say what traps me now. I just need a environment that no past, no current, but future. I really need a runaway trip.

Ian Curtis and Labrador

幾天前拜訪了一位父執輩的朋友，這位長輩家有一隻母Labrador是我家的大黑狗球球的母親。

長輩說這Labrador已經兩個禮拜不吃飯，嗯，我們都明白，她決定要走了吧。

相同的經驗發生在從小跟我一起長大的Canaan Dog身上，差不多開始拒絕進食兩個禮拜就走了。

不明白生物怎能逆著原始求生的本能等著死亡，就像從不明白Ian Curtis怎能打著逆向的領帶站在冰塊上，慢慢的向這個世界道別。Is it a ceremony? Or just want to make his last song "Ceremony" more legendary?

即使連站起來的力氣都沒有，狗兒還是在我們探望她的時候用最後的力氣搖尾示意。

回家後，球球一直圍繞在我身邊伊伊嗚嗚的像有很多話要跟我說，我只是摸摸他又親又抱抓著他的頭說你要每天都開開心心的好嗎?

Umbrella in the corner

把兩年半前出國前拍的黑白底片給洗了出來，這張照片，讓我呆了半晌。

若照片多少反映出拍攝者當時的心境，那這張確實是我當時心情的寫照。

妳在外頭的晴天，不被需要的我遺落在不起眼的角落，但每當下雨了，另我欣慰的，妳撐起的總會是我這把傘。

城市的陰天

城市的陰天，從來都不會是討喜的。